Words in red.

Oh my this was sitting in my drafts box for like half a year? Good stuff though. Man this year went by fast.

• Mom thigns. “Mom’s thighs?”
• King’s Speech. “I love that movie!” And proceeds to take hands off the wheel and swerve.
• “Party rockers in the house tonight.” Proceeds to dance and nearly take hands off wheel to dance.
• Locking apartmentmates out and silencing the doorbell.
• Attempting to make a blanket fort. And failing to finding something to prop it up. But we did end up finding a stake to stab Edward Cullen in the heart.

Wow I haven’t had a long post in a while.

The midnight breeze was wondrous as I was walking back to my apartment with a friend. Nothing but a tee and pants LOL. I love warm nights with a cool breeze. Today I went to my first legit hip hop dance class. Dancing to Shots. It was fun. And hard and hella fast. But I am determined to learn how to properly dance. Tango included. I realized that in order to actually learn and do hip hop I have to break out of my comfort zone and just “go for it” with every dance move. Go big or go home.

There have been quite a few learning to break comfort zones this year, and it’s always so difficult and awkward. Sometimes I wish I could break that wall with inhibition to like do spontaneous dancing or singing, or initiating conversations with people and strangers. But I’m still learning, and they’ve all come with great little lessons. Leaving that comfort zone is really where life begins and starts to happen.

• Silence. I really really hate silence. I just feel so awkward and don’t know what to do. And I still don’t. (I realize I love the word awkward. And obnoxious and decrepit and discombobulated too.)


• Engaging with Origins and Simple Church for the very first time. It’s turned out to be one of the biggest blessings in my spiritual journey this year.


• Staying engaged with IV when I couldn’t or simply did not want to for various reasons. Because God is God wherever and no matter where.


• Singing. I can hum no problem, but I realized singing in front of people creates a barrier for myself. I really love singing but I just can’t seem to do it in front of people. This is why I wanna go karaoke.


• Working out. In front of other people. And feeling self-conscious and inadequate. But I have sincegained 10 pounds in 2 months after 6 years of staying the same weight. Success. It has helped me focus and manage time in everything, and in self-conscious inadequacy. Still working on that and my body image/weight and how I see myself. Which I feel like is kinda weird for a guy. But whatev.


• Forgiveness. I never thought that forgiveness would be such a hard thing. Learning to forgive and what a relationship/situation looks like after that forgiveness. Still working and learning, but it has definitely helped me grow and learn to engage even when I absolutely do not want to.


• Dancing. Feeling awkward and feeling self-conscious of looking stupid when doing it. But I just gotta let it all go and move to the rhythm.


• And lastly, literally leaving my comfort zone of year-round sunny Asian-majority Americanized UCSD/Bay Area when I study abroad in Denmark. The land of neverending winter darkness and snow and cold and socialism and happiness and where I will be a super minority. But I am super excited and this will be an experience of a lifetime. Plus I will be forced to initiate conversations with people cause Danes are just as reserved as I am :P

whatshouldswimmerscallme:

Pahahaha this deserves a reblog. The things I’ve learned from swimming: lie, cheat, and the one free “I need to go to the bathroom” pass to skip the hard sets. That along with the horrors of lactates and doing flip turns every single practice in high school.